This is by far the hardest thing i've ever had to do. Now that i'm not home with them i blame myself for everything that goes wrong. If they're upset, it's my fault. If they're sick it's my fault. They get sick from being in day care, and they're in day care because i'm at work, so it's my fault they're sick! If they're hungry, it's my fault because i'm not here to give them their favorite snacks. If they've upset their Mum, it's my fault. If Mum is running late for a meeting because she had to pick them up or drop them off at day care, it's my fault. If they don't sleep well at night, it's my fault. Being in day care has but them all out of funk because i'm not taking care of them during the day and keeping them on track. Me being back at work is completely disrupting my wife's job, and her ability to perform it well. I feel like i'm ruining everything for everyone and i'm miserable as a result. My wife is miserable and i feel i'm to blame. She's constantly on edge because the girls seem to be miserable from the minute they get home in the afternoon, to the moment they eventually fall asleep and things weren't this bad when i was home with them.
With me being at work we get zero time together now. This probably makes me more unhappy than anything else! I love my time with her. It relaxes me and energizes me all at the same time. I miss her.
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